Pity Party

Well, I have decided to throw myself a big ole pity party, total guest = 1. With everything going on in my life right now, I just wish one thing would work out the way I planned.  My marriage is crumbling and all I want to do is get myself and my kids back to California. I have been living the last 2.5 years feeling trapped and as soon as I see a way out, the universe finds a way to throw up a wall in front of it.  It pisses me off to no end that something as little as money is what is holding me back. It's not even a grossly huge amount either but it might as well be. I've tried everything I could think of to raise the money and I've tried selling anything and everything I can.  It's just not meant to be. How am I supposed to help my children, myself and my marriage if I can't even get out of this damn state?